the pain is RAW!
I don't miss him. but seeing him HURTS! seeing how well he's managed to kick me out of his life and cope with it so well, seeing him close to all my close friends.
I'm under too much pressure, the pressure of dealing with being without him, and the pressure of acting like I'm fine with seeing him everyday when I'm not!
I have no energy in me for this, it's like I'm wilting, dying little by little everyday... I need to be away from him, from all of them. I can't take this anymore.