days fly...

so here it is, the summer is over, and like every other summer in my life, it passes by with none of the summer resolutions actually accomplished! I didn't read more Quraan, I didn't learn how to sew or rollerblade, I didn't change my hair color and I definitely didn't get that pet cat I always wanted! Some has been done though, I managed to lose some weight without any unhealthy practices, I also made use of all my time, I had maximum fun wih my friends which I'm sure will last me a long time, I also made friends with people who used to literally hate me before, and that feels very good...
I haven't been thinking much about the future lately (I seemed to be more keen on planning ahead when I was younger) now I'm mainly living moment by moment, I don't know if that's good or bad. When I was young, I always had this picture in my head of how my life would be in the future, I didn't know if it would turn out the way I wanted, but at least I always thought I had a plan B. now I hardly think of the future, I don't know if it's because it's depressive to think about it, or because none of the things I planned for did happen! I changed a lot as I grew up, and I believe that changed my future to come. Right now I don't know where I stand, I know that I'm studying what I like but I have no idea if that's going to be my career. I know I'm with someone I love but I don't know if we'll ever get married. my life seems hazy and unclear, and I'm just taking it one step at a time, trying as much as I can not to screw it up as I go...